Today I slept in (much of that time was meditative) and resisted the urge to feel guilty. At one point in the day I observed myself feeling self pity and it woke me up. There isn’t anything to feel bad about. Old programming was showing itself as such. I decided to just go with the flow. If I’m moved to nest, then why not, just for the fun of it?
Today was a day for my domestic goddess. She isn’t honored very often because usually her tasks are relegated to routine activities of cleaning, shopping and organizing. I think of her as my maid persona. I work hard to keep up with entropy. As a single person this makes me hyper responsible for my outcomes. There is no partner to carry the load. I’m weary of this lifestyle and feel a need to be more in my feminine self.
So yes, cleaning and organizing today but also cooking and caring for my plants and animals. There’s supreme happiness here. I have always been moved to create beautiful environments. Paintings, music, film, textiles, plant life, steel, wood, glass and stone. There’s a part of me that feels the personal space is holy so it’s been a background lifelong quest.
Last night I turned on my Bose system and cranked A.R. Rahman throughout my humble space. I don’t scrimp on music or art. If you’re not familiar, A.R. Rahman is an Indian music producer and composer. He wrote the score to Slumdog Millionaire a 2008 indie film that was nominated for 10 Academy Awards and won eight plus multiple Golden Globes. So, of course, I have a custom A.R. Rahman channel on Pandora. This links me to all of Bollywood’s best film music.
So Bollywood’s best serenaded me throughout the night. My kitty has the annoying habit of bedeviling me for breakfast at 4 a.m. so after much fruitless negotiating, I got up, fed the baby cat and was swept away by the music in the pre-dawn hours. Thanks to the residual joy from Tony Robbins Ultimate Breakthrough Challenge 2022, I decided to get up and dance. What a great way to start the day! I danced for about an hour and felt absolutely fantastic.
So I’m not sure if there’s a point to this story. I definitely recommend Tony Robbins and Indian film music. One thing’s for sure, getting up and dancing to some beautiful music is a great way to start the day!